I  thought my health would improve, when I moved out and filed.  2yrs. later and I am still not divorced.  My husband did not get his pension evaluated by the hearing date.  Closure is again delayed, causing great stress.  There is the fear of job loss due to the recession and retirement funds have been decimated.  Poor health itself causes more stress.  My auto immune system is haywire.  I've had a sinus infection and dizziness for over a year.  Surgery, and many different antibiotics haven't worked.  The ear, nose, and wallet doctor says it is antibacterial resistant. DUH. The allergist says to reduce the irritants.  This involves avoiding many foods, sugar, yeast, trees, grass, weeds {remember I'm a huge gardener}, dust, mold, beer, wine, and my beloved cat.  I look like a storm trooper with my mask on.  There's the fungus and yeast infections, fibromyalgia, and something with too big an "ICK" factor to mention.  Dating is out.  The biopsy is Mon. for an abnormal mammogram.  Sharing this with potential friends is risky.  I'm so nervous I can't even meditate.  Wii yoga is a blessing.  I've switched to natural products.  I eat health food.  My advice?  Get in peak condition before you file and take care of yourself well.  Seek counseling.  It could be a long, lonely haul.  Do it anyway.  It's more than worth it.  With all this, I'm happier than I've ever been.  I love living without constant disapproval.  Healing will come, along with the divorce.  I have faith.  The big picture is a self-portrait.  A  woman whose inner strength has come out of hiding.