It's early, I'm tired but can't sleep any longer.  I met with my "ex" last evening and have been assured that we are done.  Although I didn't want to go back to the relationship as it was, I did hope that we could both work on ourselves and get our communitive s**t together and maybe reconcile in the future.  Apparently that is not how he sees it. I wasn't happy in the relationship, he didn't treat me well at all.  In fact he was very emotionally abusive.  And according to him I was too.  Maybe that is true, I must look at myself to find out what my internal problems are so that maybe someday in the future I can establish a truly healthy intimate relationship with a man that can be life long.  It's hard, I'm lonely...  what else is new.  But it is a new day and I'm determined to find something new and exciting about it.  That's what i have to do to start a new life for myself.

Hi all,

I'm new here and just wanted to say hey.  I'm hoping to meet some great ladies who share my interests...even though sometimes I'm not sure what my interests are.  Anyway I'm in the middle of a breakup from an abusive relationship and need to get myself together so I don't repeat that again.  As I don't really have any friends or family to speak of, I'm reaching out to this community for support.  I hope that is ok.

Jan